New Year, New Blog

I'm going to be the first to say that this blog is pointless. I doubt anyone will read it.
It's mainly a way for me to get writing again and regain the grammar and literacy skills I once had, which have now been numbed by computer screens, the internet and overall, laziness.
I am also more interested in the theory behind art and design and attempting to put into words what draws me to a particular piece instead of simply saying 'I like it', which a child can do. I guess I'm attempting to regain what it is that makes me as a designers different to everyone else looking at the same image.
Its 3.30am on a Monday night, and i have to be up in 5 and half hours to get a train to London. Once again, for whatever reason I cant seem to sleep, even though I've been trying for a good 3/4 hours, bullshit! Too much to think about and too much going on to stress over, the details of which are not even really worth writing down, and with age and experience I have come to learn not to bother acknowledging these thoughts and channel the energy they give me into something productive and constructive. It just so happens I have been reading 'Made You Look' by Stefan Sagmeister in bed and found his diary entries pretty interesting, so thought maybe one day my own thoughts may be of interest to another young designer going through the similar stages of education as I am now, maybe thats big headed of me, but whatever. I just read an entry that states Sagmeister went for a whole week and only slept 2 hours on the Wednesday because he was so focused on doing work. That to me seems insane, but maybe thats the kind of commitment I need to get to where I want to be, which happens to be in Sagmeister's shoes, complete with New York studio and model girlfriend.
I am at a bit of a loss with certain aspects of my course, and maybe generally life as a whole. It annoys me that some people are not passionate about anything. So many people seem happy to party all the time and never put any effort into their work, and many of them seem to land on their feet with a decent job because of their family. I dont really understand how the only thing people can get passionate and excited about is getting drunk, or taking drugs, or going clubbing. I am not a killjoy, all that stuff is a ton of fun, i just think it needs to be done in moderation, almost as a release from the hard work people should be putting into the rest of their lives. I feel guilty waking up with a hangover, knowing that that day will be a write off and I wont have made any advance with my huge to do list that is pinned to my wall. Its hard to find a balance, without sounded and acting like an egotistical prick who seems as if he's thinks he's better than everyone else, but I really don't. It just makes me grateful that I have found the thing in life I'm passionate about I suppose.
Another thing is I don't want to get to that stage where I finish my degree and have nowhere to go, accept wishing I was still a student and had a loan to live off. I really don't want to get to the stage where I'm pushing 30 and still living the life of an 18 year old.
anyway, back to trying to sleep i suppose...